Back again

I can't believe it's been a year since I last posted. Okay, yes I can. I start stuff like this and then just give it up....no time, no interest, too tired...whatever the reason. But in the past year, so much has changed and in the year to come so much WILL change that I thought it best to start back up and try and hang in there this time.
Let's recap, shall we?
April 08'...last time I posted
May 08'....started doing daycare, began licensing process
Aug 08'....got licensed and started getting kids and making money
Sept 08'....got serious about researching adoptions from all sorts of countries and began to look for agencies
Dec 08'....talked to Helen about China's adoption program and started to fall in love with the idea of a little Asian girl.
Winter 08'-09 full house with daycare and boys....paying off all debt for a fresh start in the spring. Felt drawn more and more to China's waiting children program for adoption.
April 09'....completed all debt repayment! YAY! Now, we can focus on bigger and definately better things!

So, there it is.....our last year in a nutshell. We are now at a point where we can start to realize our dream of adopting. I've known for many years that this was a desire that God had placed in my heart. And amazingly, in all His wisdom, He led me to a man, when I was only 18, who would be so open and loving to the idea as well. What a blessing for our family. I can hardly wait for it all to start happening.

Lighthearted moment of the 'week'....we told the boys on Sunday about our plans for our family. We talked about why mom has been doing daycare and what it will mean for our family in the end. When I said the words "dad and I would like to adopt a little girl".....Timmy just put his face in his hands and started to cry. Trae started to cry and Tyler had tears running down his face. So, of course I started crying...the I look over at Jason and he's wiping HIS eyes. What a bunch of saps we are. LOL Actually, I know what it is....we love our little girl before we've even met her.

The boys at the family reunion...summer 08'

Now what?

I called Lori today to tell her I was interested in watching the boys, but she never called back. I'm beginning to think her question was more rhetorical and that maybe when she got home and thought about it, she decided I was crazy. For now, I'm writing it off as a possibility. I sure got excited about it for that short amount of time. I thought it was an answer to prayer. Now, I feel like I'm back to square one.

An answer?

Could it be that the thing that has been bothering me all week...keeping me in tears every day....keeping me up at night...could be solved?? My client tonight asked me if I would want to watch her and her friends little boys for $1200 a month. I thought she was kidding at first, but she wasn't. The more I thought about it, the more I realized this could be just the thing I've been praying for. This would be what we need to pay for the boys schooling this year. This could get us out of debt earlier than planned. And most of all....would we finally be able to seriously consider adopting? I can't even imagine, and I won't get excited about that yet. Too much to come first before even thinking about it.
Would it be crazy around here? Yep. Would I wish some days that they weren't coming? Yep. But at the end of it, would I regret doing it? Nope! No way. Now that I'm thinking seriously that I'd like to do it, I'm afraid to think about it too much cuz what if they change their mind. Or what if her friend doesnt' want to. I'm trying not to get my hopes up about the possibilities here, but dang....this could be really good! Lord, just guide this through to completion if it's what I'm supposed to be doing. If it is, Lord, thank you for bringing it to me. I will call Lori tomorrow and let her know.

Today, I got an email from Rachael that she lost her baby. I'm so sad for her. I know she was hopeful for this little one. I think I'll ask the other mom's group girls to go in on some flowers for her.

Lighthearted moment of the day.....When Tony came downstairs from bed tonight to say he was thirsty, I noticed he didn't have his pj bottoms on. I told him to put them on cuz he'd get cold. When I went to tuck him in after he'd fallen asleep, on his legs was his pillow case that he'd taken off his pillow and crawled his legs into instead. Okay....guess that works. LOL

DONE!

It's been a few days since the wedding and I'm really just recovering. I know, I know..that sounds dramatic, but honestly, it was quite the couple days! Thur. night I thawed out the cakes, got them filled and tiered then rewrapped. Friday morning, I started right after the boys got on the bus. I decorated the cakes from about 8am to 2pm. Lindsey's dad came and helped me bring them to the hall where I put them in the cooler until after the rehearsal dinner. That night I was able to set it up and just do everything but the flowers, which I quick did the next day.
We stayed over at the hotel on friday night and I got up to do hair at 7am. I did Lindsey and her 6 bridesmaids before 11am...just in time to get back to the room and get the boys ready and myself so that we could check out and get to the church. Turns out the photographer was 30 min late so I raced for nothing, but oh well....it all worked out. I'm kinda racing through this description too, but it was such a long 2 days, that any more details would take up too much time.
I really enjoyed the reception...we get so many compliments on the boys and the comments I got about the cake and hair were endless. It was pretty fun actually. The cake was soooo good, tons of ppl told me how good it tasted. The girls hair all was great too, I was really proud of that. It was a good night and it was so good to see Pat so happy. They make a great couple and I'm really happy for both of them.
I was thankful that there wasn't a gift opening on Sunday morning. We all slept til 10:30-11am. By 11:30 I told Jay I felt sick, I was soooo tired! I went up to bed and slept until 4pm!!! Would you believe I still went to bed by 11:30pm. I really needed that.
Fast forward to today. I had the mom's time girls here this morning and then at work tonight it was the first time I've washed my hair or put on makeup for days. LOL
I'm really mad at Jay right now, but I don't even want to get into that tonight. Maybe tomorrow. For now, I'm getting tired and should head to bed.

Was there a lighthearted moment today??? Well, it was sort of funny when Jeanne reminded me of the time I got to work and had realized that in my haste to get to work, I'd come in Jason's slippers. HAHA!! Okay, that made me laugh. I'd forgotten about that. Shoot, they're lucky I'm dressed half the time. :)

T minus 2 days....

Cindy just called and told me that she ordered something to help Trae at night. She saw it on the Today Show this week. It's a bear and a story book and a scent. You read the book about a boy who sees scary things at night and the scent is there to relax and calm. It sounds really nice and it was so thoughtful of her. I hope this helps him feel better at night.

It's 2 days away from craziness! I'm really excited for the wedding and all that it entails. The actual day is in 3, but Friday is when I do the cake and get to the hotel and go to the rehearsal and set up the cake at night. AAAHH!!! Then it's up at 6:30am and off to do the hair for the bridal party! That will be so fun. I'm just pumped about the whole weekend. I just finished about 4 lists of what I need to do, pack, bring, get at work...etc. The wedding is far enough away that it would be a real pain to forget something, so I hope I'm covering all my bases. Tomorrow I pick up the frozen cakes from Kristin and after work, I'll fill and layer them and let them thaw overnight. Then the fun begins. Not sure if I'll be writing for a couple days then.

Jay is feeling better today. He says I cured him last night..wink, wink...He wanted a little more 'curing' this afternoon. :) He's at the Wild game tonight with Chuck. His mom gave him tickets for Christmas and tonight's the game night. I hope they're having a good time, it's so good for him to be able to get out and hang out with friends. I was glad he could do it, I just hate sitting home all day with the kids.

Well, I have a rather large pile of mismatched pj's on the floor that I need to put together. I've been getting a lot done around the house today so that I don't feel like I'm doing the cake and leaving for the night with a mess at home.

Lighthearted moment of the day.....definately when I looked outside at the boys playing in the backyard on a day that was a first for warm weather. Tony and Tanner had shovels and rather than putting snow into their wheelbarrel, they were shoveling mud from the middle of the yard. The best part was Jay looking out at them and just shaking his head. Not going out and laying into them...just looking at them and realizing that boys are boys are boys....and ours are no different.

I'm so tired

Sooo, I'm going to bed. Maybe if I get a decent night's sleep, I won't feel so lazy tomorrow. Goodnight!

Lighthearted moment of the day....playing Kings in the Corner with Tyler before bed. I love that he's getting to an age where I can enjoy his company and not just be parenting him all the time.

Sorry's just a word

I got a call after lunch today. It was Mindy. When I answered, she said hi...I said hi....then she said...sorry... I busted out laughing. Couldn't help it. It was the way she said it, like it was pure torture to utter. I got her laughing too just listening to me. It was good cuz it broke the ice. I wish I would have thought to give her mom's classic line to the word 'sorry'. Next time. We talked and I apologized too for implying that I might not do Kaylee's hair. Then we talked a bit about Mark. I told her how I really like Mark, which is true...but that I just didn't want her to settle and look back in 10 yrs. and think she made a mistake. I...we just all have to trust her.
Lori came over this morning and we got an addition to the Eclipse website made. It's a page on updos and it features some of my best pics and talks a bit about my experience and training. I really love it, it turned out good. I hope it sparks some more interest. Fingers crossed.....
We went to Dan and Amy's house for dinner tonight. They called last night and invited us which was nice. We were going to have lasagna, but when Dan got home from work and went to put it frozen into the oven...he noticed it took 2 hours. Whoops...we waited for an hour after getting there and it was still frozen in the middle so we ended up getting pizza. LOL That was better. One of the pizzas was made wrong and had mushrooms on it...Dan was NOT happy and called them back to complain. He told the manager that he really wasn't into fungus on his pizza. HAHAHA!! What an ass. ;)
I'm anxious to hear tomorrow if we can get the cake to the hall on Friday. The coordinator wasn't there today. I really pray this works, it would be so much better all around. I can't believe the wedding is in 5 days. What a blast it's going to be.

Lighthearted moment of the day....there were 2 really. First was when Tyler came up to me while I was at the kitchen sink, put his arm around me and said he never wanted to let me go, that he wanted to hug me forever. Wow..almost 11 and still a mush on his mom. I hope that doesnt' ever end.
Second was tonight at Dan's when I expained to Tanner that there was a baby in Amy's tummy. His face was priceless as it fixated on her stomach. I can't imagine what was going through his head.